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Thursday, April 27, 2006 

Production is slow...

I know I promised pics from my PI trip, but they're nearly done. You see, I'm adding text onto the pics themselves, so I don't have to explain them on the webpage/site I'm uploading to. I will be uploading them to my community webshots page, and uploading will be another pain-staking process...one pic at a time on my 56k modem. Oh joy. But it will be done...eventually.

So, to tide you over 'til then, I'll share a recent poem I wrote.

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"Forgotten"

by: V. Cruz

I'm jealous of those who are loved
I'm tired of being loveless
I'm sad that I feel all alone
I'm sick of this infinite sadness

I wish I had someone of my own
Someone that will care for me always
I wish that someone could be you
But wishes don't come true anyway

I sit on the side of reality
I live in my daydreams and dreams
I'd rather be lost in my thoughts of you
Than to live without you in all actuality

I'm prone to heartache and loss
I feel I am always a victim
But still I find ways to live on
Somehow there's hope deep within

But I'm scared my hope will run dry
As I get older and years pass me by
Am I doomed to be by myself for all time?
Am I to live my pathetic life loveless until I die?

And what of these people who have love?
Are they more blessed than I?
Are they so loved by God that they get what I want?
And I get nothing, but hollowness inside

4/27/2006 12:56:00 PM |

*hugs Ronnie* Love will probably smack you upside the head when you least expect it. That's how it did me.

how's the dead thyroid?

Posted by Blogger sabete | 5/02/2006 04:46:00 AM   

*poking at my thyroid* "anybody home? hello?"

no one's anwering. it must be dead ;P

Doc had me do a follow up lab, and the thyroid levels are in the normal range - but just on the border of HYPO now. So, I'm thinking I'm gonna have to go on Synthroid again (synthetic replacement thyroid hormone) to keep me from being Hypothyroid (which I used to be for the longest time).

I did my 2 week lab today. I'll see what results I get in a few days. But I don't feel particularly different. Just kind of status quo. Except for the occasional blues...which I'm used to, but the blues still suck.

Posted by Blogger ronnie | 5/08/2006 07:20:00 PM   

Thanks Jess :-)

My endocrinologist doc said the labs are still in the "normal" range for now. But I'll still be needing labs every two weeks.

I think the sole blood-providing vein is getting tired and is all used and beat-up. The lab techs will have to find another one for the next time :p

Posted by Blogger ronnie | 5/12/2006 03:34:00 PM   

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