Monday, February 26, 2007 

just some funnies

Just surfing the 'net before I get ready for work today:

Funny MySpace Graphics!
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Later y'all! ^_^

2/26/2007 12:35:00 PM | |

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 

what's up, what's down, what's sideways, in and out...

~-= B L E A C H =-~

No, I'm not talking about Clorox or anything laudry detergent related...I'm talking about this:



It's my current obsession (this japanese anime/manga series). I've now made "Bittorrent" a permanent part of my daily being. I've been able to find many japanese animes through this P2P method - and these animes are already english subtitled, for instant enjoyment ^_^ Of course, downloading takes days, sometimes weeks - 'cause it all depends on whether the files I want are really floating around in cyberspace, available for download - since it's P2P, I have to have a user/owner, aka "seeder", online, who already has the file or even file portion, in order to download.

So, how did I become so attached to this anime called "Bleach"? Well, when my PC returned from PC Outlet a while back (Myloe's bro Lawrence works there), I discovered I already had 110 episodes of this anime, stored on my hard drive, all courtesy of Lawrence. So, I had free time on my off days. I started watching. A few episodes a night after coming home from work quickly turned into full-on episode watching marathons on days-off. I was able to finish those 110 episodes fairly fast, I'd say, in 2 weeks. And mind you, these episodes were only shown weekly originally (I think over the past 4 or 5 years in japan) - so I compressed 110 weeks of episodes into 2 weeks, just because I had all those episodes readily available :-D

Then, I was able to locate the fansub group that has been releasing the anime episodes via bittorrent, and I am now always current in the episodes. Since this is an ongoing anime in Japan still, I am watching the same episode from Japan, just 2-3 days after its original japan air-date. I am up-to-date. How kick-ass is that?

'Cause normally, if we follow the rules and shit, people like me usually have to wait for some video company in America to realize how kick-ass the anime is, which is usually, years later, before licensing and releasing it to the american audience. Case in point - Dragonball. The series was already so old by the time it finally made it to america.

So, I've really lucked out. With a fast internet connection, downloading such anime goodness is heavenly!

Now, many and most anime TV shows are based on manga, or they all started out as manga (like japanese comics), and became adapted for TV shows. Actually, many series are still being released as manga at the same time as the TV show! So, what I have been working so feverishly on this past week - the downloading of the whole manga series, up to the most currently released chapter.

So, I am also current with the Bleach manga :-D and I have to say, the TV show follows the manga very closely - so much that when I read the manga, I can see the exact same picture that I watched from the TV show in my head - some of the manga drawings are exactly the same thing shown in the TV show! It's cool :-D But, the manga has been mainly black & white, so I really love the TV show just because it's in color, and in motion :-P

So, if you ever wanna watch Bleach, I say, doozo! It's been an entertaining series so far - I can't wait for each new installment every week.

~-= W H A T E L S E =-~

Val's back from her biz/vacation trip. She got to see Ness and Vic in Cali, as well as a couple of our cousins. She got to see Chelle and James in Vegas.

Speaking of trips, I should be going on one soon myself ;-D But, I'll be on annual leave already on February 28. I'm gonna try my best to at least cram a little for my NCLEX test. I'm still waiting for my "Authorization to test" aka ATT, so I can actually schedule the test date and time. But, I've figured out what day is best for me to actually test - March 27 (after I return from my trip, and before I return to work). I figured this out based on my biorhythm.

What the heck is that? Well, when I took my LPN exam, I based my test date on my biorhythm calculation, which was furnished by my review instructor. She also gave me and the other students a good-luck charm that day, as I recall. And, I guess I just want to do the same thing again with this test - to kind of keep the luck and possibly better my chance at passing :-P

So, this site has a free biorhythm program for download: http://www.whitestranger.com/biorhythms_for_free.htm

Based on this program, the best intellectual day I will have is on March 27 - and I remember my instructor saying that the intellectual peak is the best test-taking time :-D So, there you have it.
You guys should give it a try too - it shows you high and low levels of emotional, physical, intellectual, intuitive, etc. It's pretty cool.

Well, I think that's all I'm gonna write, so lemme leave y'all with one more piece of eye candy:

it's us 4 Cruz brats - at the airport when Vic and Ness left. You like? :-D

2/21/2007 11:50:00 PM | |

Monday, February 05, 2007 

look what I found

You see, I started Paxil back in 2000. I'm 6 years strong, and still going unfortunately. But look at what the news dug up some time back.

2/05/2007 11:36:00 PM | |

 

I surrender...

It was such a task just driving to work with dizziness. I made it to the unit, but en route I was extremely queazy...I knew I wouldn't be able to handle the whole shift in such a condition. So I asked my coworkers to work overtime for me - luckily they are so nice and supportive, they were able to work out something to cover me...and I called the Nursing Supervisor to let her know I was going straight to the clinic.


So I went as a walk-in to PMC. Got seen by a very new doctor, a lady named Dr. Adolphson. I told her I was a "bad" patient - forgot to refill my meds on time, thus went the weekend without my pills...blah blah blah...now I'm sick, in withdrawal and I can't stand it.


Well....what was there for her to do for me? Nothing. The only solution to my problem is just to take the damn medicine and let it build back up in my system. In other words, TIME. So, I got today and tomorrow off to recover - I already let work know I'll still be out sick. I feel really bad for leaving them in such a tight situation - we are already short-staffed as it is - and with me being sick for 2 days, means that someone else has to work overtime, work harder, because of me and my stupidity and forgetfulness.

Just how bad is paxil withdrawal? Have a look at this site and see what I mean:
http://www.quitpaxil.org/

or, more specifically, here's the list of symptoms:
http://www.quitpaxil.org/Main/symptoms.htm

Funny thing (I guess):
When I told Papa and Grandma why I came back from work today, and why I've been stuck in my room prone in bed during the weekend, they started cracking jokes at me - I guess I shouldn't have told them I was in "withdrawal". Now they say I'm a "drug addict", and I can't live without my "drugs". Thanks paxil. I'm forever your junky >_<


I wish I could do this...

2/05/2007 07:47:00 PM | |

 

I hate Paxil...with all my being...



Dammit...I go 2 days...2 measly days without that fucking pill, and my whole world crumbles.
Okay, so it's my fault my ADD gets the best of me - especially when it comes to remembering to pick up my damn pills...

So I suffered through my entire weekend off...in paxil withdrawal. Why? 'Cause I remembered to refill my damn pills, but forgot to pick them up on Saturday - only realizing I went the day without them when Megadrug was closed. Come Sunday, I was a complete wreck.

I'm talking about the hellish symptoms: nausea, vertigo, general body weakness, a forever stuffy and fuzzy feeling in your head, little shocks in your ears, and very vivid/scary dreams (which I usually don't remember when waking up, but paxil withdrawal somehow allows you to remember everything), diarrhea, and the general feeling of emptiness, lack of energy, kind of like being a zombie. The only thing that kept me from completely passing out was sleeping most of the day away (lying very still and not moving much), face down in my pillow, cause even sleeping supine was hell.

Apparently, my psychiatrist, who will be leaving the island for good, will be leaving me on this damn pill until I have passed the RN exam, and become steady in my work as a RN. But that's like, what, 2 years from now!?!

She won't be here to get me off the fucking thing, but she will leave instructions for my internist on how to taper me off slowly. Boy, I can't wait for that fucking day. Until then, I have to try my best to not forget to take that damn pill, or I suffer the withdrawal consequences.

But I can't help my ADD sometimes...it's just who I am. And I kind of missed Val this whole weekend. Usually, she helps me keep track of getting my meds and stuff, but with her gone, I've been left to my own forgetful devices. And that sucks. I rely on my sis too much perhaps...

So, I'll be at work today, not completely recovered from my withdrawal hell...the first thing I did this morning was wake up, go straight to Megadrug as soon as it opened, and got me my damn pills. Even though a dose is in my body now, I figure it will still be a couple days before I really feel okay. As I write this, minute movements of my head send me into dizzyness. Driving was such a task this morning too. Imagine how I'll be at work today!

Motherfucker shit.
Shit motherfucker.
Wish me luck.


I wish I was already feeling like this...

2/05/2007 12:04:00 PM | |