Sunday, May 20, 2007 

Always wondering, "What if..."

I find it terribly hard to move forward, because all that I see in front of me is my past.


shitsuren

5/20/2007 10:24:00 PM | |

Saturday, May 19, 2007 

I've got a busy weekend

I finally have a weekend off from work. I'm spending it by attending a couple of important social events.

We just came home from Myloe's Grad-Dinner Celebration, held at the Alize Restaurant at Guam Reef Hotel. The food was excellent, and the service was top-notch. The workers there made us all feel at home, and weren't afraid to strike up a conversation and be friendly with you.

Apparently, Alize has a huge seafood buffet fest for dinner every Friday to Sunday. I tell you, you must go and eat during this time. I've never seen so many various seafood dishes...a few different types of crabs, shrimps, mussels and oysters, of course the shrimp tempura...oh my...I'm salivating!

And, there was a tiny halo-halo station as well! Gotta love halo-halo!

We have pics for you all to enjoy:

Myloe's Graduation Day Ceremony ---> http://good-times.webshots.com/album/559099523tqWJmR?vhost=good-times

Myloe's Graduation Dinner Celebration ---> http://good-times.webshots.com/album/559101285sUuCPT?vhost=good-times

Tomorrow, I'll be celebrating with my coworkers as I attend the wedding of my buddy, Jeffy. I think of him as a brother - he's cool to work with, he helped me out when he and his class invited me to graduate along with them last year - he's an all-around cool guy, and we love to joke around at work ^_^ I got a super-cool gift for him as well - it's one of those 5" LCD screen digital picture frames, where you plug in your digital media card and it shows your pics automatically like a slide show - and you can even add music to play along with it! I love getting tech-toys for the guys! ^_^

So, I hope to have more pics to show you after that event.

Other than that, I'm still status quo I guess. My hands still suffer the unknown allergic rash - I still haven't figured out yet if it's really the gloves or actually the soap...but, I'm thinking of stopping by Kmart tomorrow to buy my own damn liquid soap - one that I know I'm not allergic to, so I can use only that to wash my hands at work. Then I may have more clues or answers. I'll keep you posted.
Otherwise, it's still the same old pills, and Benadryl as needed - which is really nearly every day >_<

Here's a few of my fave pics from my weekend so far:





5/19/2007 10:35:00 PM | |

Monday, May 07, 2007 

feeling...I don't know...

I was gonna continue blogging with "Some things that I've been thinking over...part 2", but I've actually forgotten what I'm supposed to say in that, so...nevermind...

Recent developments - I had my very first shot of tequila this past Saturday night at a bar called "A Class" - it's somewhere near St. John's in upper Tumon. There was a live band there, playing a lot of filipino cover songs. I had a blast. The tequila burned my chest so much - it's pure ass fire! I went with my coworkers to this place after work to celebrate cinco de mayo.

What else...my doctors are leaving island. It's sad. My thyroid specialist - Dr. May Reyes is leaving for the US. I picked up my medical records from her office already. My psychiatrist, Dr. Archana Leon Guerrero, is leaving this summer - I've picked up my discharge summary from her and gave a copy to my primary doc (an internist), Dr. Sebastian Kallingal, at PMC clinic.

So, now Dr. K has to be the one to be prescribing all my meds - meaning my thyroid meds, my psycho meds, and whatever else I need.

Lately, my hand rash has been flaring really bad. I'm already using special nitrile gloves - already supplied by employee health at the hospital. And still, my hands break out all swollen, red, itchy, and dry, cracked skin...it's just a fucking mess, and the shit hurts!

So, I'm supposed to turn in workman's comp forms - you know my ADD - I still have the papers with me and I don't know where to go to turn them in, so yeah...but at least I let some of the nursing supervisors know,and my head nurse and nursing director know my pain...we'll figure out a way to deal with my rashy hands.

For now, I've been given a Decadron shot in the ass in the ER, I've been on Prednisone for the past 4 days, and I'm taking my good 'ol Benadryl as needed.
I'm also applying a cream - Betamethasone - another steroid medication directly to the rash twice a day - that's been helping a bit too.

What the hell else is going on?

Well...I think maybe my thyroid is off again somehow - I'm starting to feel more fatigue and my carpal tunnel came back with a vengeance - I mean swollen ass fingers to the point where I can't make a fist, and painful wrist movements.

Shit...I'm so sick of being sick!

I think I've said that before....

So, I'm supposed to go and do labs, but I can't get myself up in the morning to go to DLS and have them drawn, 'cuz I'm just too damned tired.

Well...I'll try again tomorrow. There's always tomorrow...

AND,

Dr. K switched my Paxil over to the controlled release Paxil - called Paxil CR.
I've been on this CR preparation for the past 4 days. I'm just today starting to feel very slight withdrawal effects - the dizzy head and vertigo...a little more increased anxiety and worry...

I actually needed to take a Xanax last night to help me sleep.

*sigh*

5/07/2007 06:01:00 PM | |