Serenading my way into his heart...
Yesterday, August 29, was Arnold's birthday. I had already sent him his (early) b-day gift of chocolates, nokia 6060 phone, and nice pics of me. But, I also had a second gift for him - an original song composed by me for him. And, just this morning, right after midnite (still 10-ish in the PI, so technically still his birthday), I sang this song to him - just me and the guitar, and him listening.
He loved it :-D
So, it appears that serenading is a fool-proof way into a person's heart. And it was the first time I had ever done such a thing. I normally don't like to sing solo, fearing that my voice sucks, but he somehow found my voice beautiful.
And, if you could just see my face right now, as I type this, I have been and still am blushing. It's so damn hot in here! I've got some major adrenaline rush or something going on...I can't contain myself! Is this what they call love??? I've felt love before, but this is a different kind of love.
For once, I am not feeling "shitsuren" - the japanese equivalent of "unrequited love". I am finally loving someone, and he's loving me in return - and he makes it known to me that he is loving me in return. Everyday, he sends me messages that say he has feelings for me. And I send the same back to him.
And tonight, after my serenade, he let me know that he's falling for me. *sound of heart melting to mush on the floor* God...my ears are so hot right now!!! And, how can I refuse such statements like that! I've never heard such sweet and sincere things, so of course I let him know that I'm also falling for him.
And I think I may have sealed the deal. Before my ITE prepaid long-distance card ran out, we said goodbye to eachother. He said, "love you...", and I said, "love you too..."
I'm gonna have to write another song or something...and...I've got to find a way to get my ass over there to the PI as soon as possible. I know I've been saying I'll go back in March, but after tonight's events...that maybe too far from now. Wouldn't it be kick-ass if I met him over X-mas? I'm sure that would just make his year ^_^
He loved it :-D
So, it appears that serenading is a fool-proof way into a person's heart. And it was the first time I had ever done such a thing. I normally don't like to sing solo, fearing that my voice sucks, but he somehow found my voice beautiful.
And, if you could just see my face right now, as I type this, I have been and still am blushing. It's so damn hot in here! I've got some major adrenaline rush or something going on...I can't contain myself! Is this what they call love??? I've felt love before, but this is a different kind of love.
For once, I am not feeling "shitsuren" - the japanese equivalent of "unrequited love". I am finally loving someone, and he's loving me in return - and he makes it known to me that he is loving me in return. Everyday, he sends me messages that say he has feelings for me. And I send the same back to him.
And tonight, after my serenade, he let me know that he's falling for me. *sound of heart melting to mush on the floor* God...my ears are so hot right now!!! And, how can I refuse such statements like that! I've never heard such sweet and sincere things, so of course I let him know that I'm also falling for him.
And I think I may have sealed the deal. Before my ITE prepaid long-distance card ran out, we said goodbye to eachother. He said, "love you...", and I said, "love you too..."
I'm gonna have to write another song or something...and...I've got to find a way to get my ass over there to the PI as soon as possible. I know I've been saying I'll go back in March, but after tonight's events...that maybe too far from now. Wouldn't it be kick-ass if I met him over X-mas? I'm sure that would just make his year ^_^
Unrequited love SUCKS ass. It's so much better to have them love you back ...
Posted by
sabete |
9/03/2006 10:43:00 AM
definitely! All I've ever known is "shitsuren". The recent one was one of my coworkers - well, recent to me is 2 years ago - I gave him my heart for x-mas, and he didn't accept it.
But even in the following year, I still wanted him - but he already had "someone" in the philippines. Everyday at work was like torture - 'cause I knew I wanted him, but couldn't have him. It was hard to be professional at work and hold my feelings in.
Earlier this year, said guy went to the PI to marry his bride - he left work for good. Who knows what he's up to now...
So yeah...I'm getting love back...but it's just words and feelings right now. I hope to have action-love soon ^_^
Posted by
ronnie |
9/03/2006 01:12:00 PM